MOTIVATE ME

#2 - MOTIVATE ME

I am the type that if something goes on for long enough I get bored.  I can't help it I guess I'm the typical Sagi.  I need to constantly be stimulated by a lot of things, be it stress or what not as long as it is stimulating then I'm all for it.  This Diploma was by far the hardest thing I have ever had to study for.  A lot of late nights and feeling like an absolute loser!  I am so proud that I can finally say that I have a Diploma in Graphic Design.  It's a huge achievement.  Now that I have it, I can't believe that I have to stick it out for another 2 years here so I can gain my Bachelor Degree in Media Design.  No doubt it will be hard and I'm already looking for alternative schools as I really want a scholarship and to be challenged in my final year. 

What does all this prove?  Yes, I will need to research, reason with the Lord, pray and talk with my husband who I know has my best interests at heart.  Him and I are quite different because I always doubt my capabilities and not trust my talents and abilities but I'm looking forward to finishing a Degree and having that back up behind me!  So yes interesting it shall be for me.  I'm now starving at school trying to finish my assignments and looking at time fly by.  Tonight I will relax so that my creative juices can rest and counsel with the Lord about my education and my life.  I want to be great.  I know that much, but I also need to keep motivated. 

I never thought I'd be able to go back to school again.  People told me, especially family, that I was too old and that I had a student loan that was huge.  Well, all things aside I want to hang this in my room to say that I have achieved this and will be set to achieve even more.  I can do that!  YES!

Lesson learned today:  All the settings in my mind are made by me and I have the power to change them.  Everything good that is yet to come your way is forged by the consequences you choose.  So choose the right.

Never ever give up.

Never ever give up.

This morning when I woke up I thought about my life and how I have learned the most from never giving up on myself.  For about 3 weeks now I have been exercising.  This past week I have been inconsistent due to the weather but also due to my husband not being well enough to come with me for walks.  Every time I have tried my best to exercise while being married I have lost confidence.  Not because of my husband, but because I didn't have the right mindset and would always get down on myself for not being consistent.  I would set unrealistic goals and would commit to too much and not listen to my body.  It's been almost 2 years being married and I have not had consistent exercise.  I'm ashamed to say that I have done these things and literally let go of looking after my temple but I'm at that point where I need to look after myself.  I must admit that now that I am in a new environment and nearing 30 that I have this resolve to never give up on doing some exercise during the week.  

Everyday that I get up whether I feel like doing exercise or not, I think about the body that God has blessed me with.  I think about this machine that is in need of being looked after.  I think about it's future purpose to give birth and raise children.  I think about where I will be needed later on in life and what God may have in store for me and I think all I have to do today is get up, put on some clothes and sneakers and God will help me in my pursuits of renovating this temple of His lol.  I was recently reading on some blogs about running and the biggest struggle will be getting out of bed, but once I have my sneakers on, it's pretty much a done deal lol.  

So here's to a great year.  A year of me not giving up on myself or others around me.  It's not my job to be perfect or think that I am this marvelous person that is always supposed to be, but as long as I never give up in the pursuit of anything worthwhile, then I can always have that dream or goal come to fruition.  

Through Christ I can do all things.  Never ever give up.